It's been an interesting month. I quit nicotine cold turkey, that was pretty difficult, but I've managed. 5 weeks, I'm satisfied. Quit weed as well but much more recent, 2 days ago. I think physically I am doing better, I'm able to get tired at normal times in the night and usually am in bed asleep before midnight now, I think (?) I might be a bit less anxious, I can't reallt tell any difference besides I get tired at normal times, and eat more than one small meal a day. Class is still as busy as can be, I barely manage to keep up. my second 8 week class started for english, it's overwhelming, I have an autoethnography essay worth 200 pts due this week, I have no idea how to fix the rough draft, I do not enjoy writing about myself. I struggle with it. I had to read an incredible book for this class though. It's called "The Latehomecomer" by Kao Kalia Yang. It's a memoir about a Hmong family who had to move from refugee camps in thailand, to minnesota, and try to "keep up with the American ways of life" while still holding onto her Hmong Identity. It was incredible, I cried a few times, I would certainly read it again.

Smiling friends ended 2 days ago, my husband, bestfriend and I all watched the last episodes together yesterday, It was really funny, I didn't think we'd ever meet charlie's freaky uncle lmao, his dog was cracking me up the whole time just being an odd moving png of a rottweiler.

I don't really know what else to write, I don't think anyone reads this besides myself when I check for spelling mistakes. I started going to church again, been playing splatoon3 any chance I can get in my freetime, I started reading "Killers of a Flower Moon" by David Grann, I'm not very far into it yet, but it's incredibly interesting so far, and I can't wait to read more. However, pardon my language too, why the HELL does Leornado Dicaprio have to be in what seems to be almost every movie to exist? Every book I have read recently I swear have a movie adaptation of it with guess who in it? HIM. GO AWAY. this book has a movie with him in it, and a book my mom just gave me called "Shutter Island" also has him??? I am haunted by him, I do not like him after watching the Django movie with my husband and father in law, now I just do not like him period lol.

well, other than that. I finally got a psychiatry appointment, only been dreaming about that since I was like, 11-12 haha. I hope that will help me with the crippling paranoia I have, I can't eat much because of it, or leave my house, do certain things, wear certain clothes or items, talk to people, look at them, it's rough. I've been suspecting (with researching it not just googling one symptom) possibly having OCD. I can't say for sure, but hopefully this can help figure it out more, it's tiring, i'm exhausted, everyday is something new to worry about.

I got some annoying cold, throat's sore and gosh does my head hurt, too. I'm ready to lay down and watch some Jungle School (pelase watch it if you haven't it's about orphan Orangutans learning to be orangutans in "jungle school." it's so cute. Goodbye to nobody, thanks for reading ryan cause I made you look haha. Sorry this one isn't as long, or interesting, I don't really have a whole lot, right now at least, that I can think of, my head really hurts :(

Manage my time bad I do indeed, I haven't touched the html for any of my websites pages in a month! Hi! midterms are no joke, I don't think I've ever researched and written so much on Pantothenic acid supplementaton in the diet in my entitre life lol. So, I've since changed this from specifically being the "school stuff" page into a personal page so I can post whatever whenever, hopefully that will make it easier to post, I'll be making a separate school page still, just don't think I can keep up with that currently.

this weeks been the calmest week I've had since the start of the spring semester lol, with it being spring break, I've had nothing actually DUE to do. My husband and I went to the river 5/7 days of this week and i was reading Paprika by Yasutaka TsuTsui, Hung out with friends, watched a lot of good mythical morning, tried a new dutch bros drink that is the absolute new love and light of my life (Banana Creampie blended freeze with caramel drizzel ouughhhh lord I almost shed a tear It was actually so delicious.) My husband and I are gonna get some together tommorow morning since I'm back to studying hard for the rest of the semester, i'm so excited! I love my husband so much, it's been wonderful getting to have a more laid back week where I can be more present and not absorbed in my textbooks or computer doing work all day.

Now, the pressing matters, I did FINISH paprika as well as read it over the break (break was only the 16th-22nd so plenty of time.) How did I feel about it nobody may ask? Well, I'd give it a 3/5. I was confused as to why the book had surprisingly lower ratings on goodreads and other websites until now. Without spoiling big important stuff, the general concept of the story is GREAT, the way it is done? not as great, still good! way too much sexual stuff, it got annoying, there is one chapter that has the main character 'paprika' / chiba got r*ped, as someone who went into the book blind besides "therapist uses device where she can go into clients dreams to help them" I sure did NOT see that coming. Also, the Tokita slander throughot that entire story was just so fucking annoying, i feel like you can only call a person fat so many times in a certain amount of ways, this book would not LET GO that tokita was fat, that was all he was, who cares if he was a genuius who helped invent the machine to begin with, or that he struggled with public speaking, no this is an OBESE scientist who is HORIZONTALLY CHALLENGED and acts like a TUB OF LARD and he's gonna be a GLUTTON all day and reek of ADIPOSE TISSUE like omg okay dude, he was the only normal actual nice guy to Paprika/Chiba too, meanwhile all the conventially attractive men she knew or liked tried to do something with her or to her. I wanna watch the film and see if that's better, because the book was kind of annoying sometimes, and I personally had a really hard time keeping up with some parts, or people of the story, like the two evil gay dudes?? i dont really remember all what they were about lmao.

I'm trying to decide what book I should read next, I have tons, so I'm not running out of options, I started "Endurance" by alfred Lansing not too long ago, I think last month, but classes got too busy and I had to drop it for a while. Tried to pick it back up over spring, couldn't remember what was happening where I was in the book so I just read Paprika instead, Since I was probably going to have to restart anyway. I have mainly true crime books i recieved from my mother a while back, like "I'll be gone in the dark" "Black Dahlia Murders" and some stuff about Jonestown, sometimes though, I do appreciate reading about living people who are not suffering. My mother in Law got me "Killers of the Flower Moon" for my birthday a few months ago though, and I still haven't read it, so maybe that's up next! it's so hard to pick!!

Anyway, I lowkey do not know what else to write, it's already a bit late, i should be getting ready to shower. I will return to this eventually LMAO, I'm off to go douse myself in 50 oz of Snow Fairy body spray and dust from lush so I smell like banana taffy.

Hi! Classes are so insanely busy I haven't been able to find any time to even conjure an idea of what my first blog post would be. 5 nursing prereq classes with 2 8 week courses are a lot! but, I guess a little about me and the courses i plan to talk about on here would be a good place to start

My name Is Maricela, or just Mari. I'm 19, go by she/her/hers, and am happily married to my husband, Ryan! Only married for 4 months, but together almost 5 years! In my free time i love to play the piano and read books (Right now I'm reading a book called "Endurance" i forget the author, I think by Andrew Lansing or something like that?) Currently I am a pre-health occupations major doing my prerequisites for nursing. I plan to get my nursing degree and I hope to one day specialize In respiratory care or nutrition, my big dream though is to become a Hospice Nurse.

Right now, I'm enrolled In introduction to Nutrition, Medical Terminology for the healthcare provider, Intro concepts to anatomy & physiology, cultural anthropology, and just good old english. We're already into week 5, I am beyond packed, and have my first exam in a few days. I was hoping to make blogs about the stuff I learned weekly, but that's sadly unrealistic at the moment. I spent all day today reading about Carbohydrates, the essential energy form for humans, our red blood cells and brain cells are the equivalent of picky 6 year olds, and will only consume ATP produces from carbs. There are many of odd terms to describe different carbohydrates depending on their units of sugar. Carbohydrates are made of sugar units, Carbon atoms, Hydrogen atoms, and Oxygen atoms. 1 sugar unit? Monosaccharide. 2? Disaccharide. 3? Polysaccharide. 3-10 holy shit? Oligosaccharide. humans like sugar, there's a lot of sugar, Glucose is the main kind, Fructose, Galactose and Lactose also are around. There's seriosuly too much from each chapter for me to be able to form a simple summary, we'll see how I'll keep up. I make quizlets of my chapters every single week, so I could post the links of those.

Outside of that, I have a few interests that I do try to indulge in whenever I have a moment. Most recently I've been rewatching the Simpsons, I like Iron Lung both the game and the movie, I love fallout, fallout 4 Is my favorite. Every now and then I look at the welcome home website, I love primates, minecraft, good mythical morning, and ultrakill to name a few things!

I'm not too sure what else to say, frankly I'm worried how this will actually look on the page, we'll find out together. I'm not sure how consistent I can be with blogs, I am horrible at managing my time, I'm thinking of making a status box on the main page to post small updates to at least be more active. Either way, I hope it'll interest somebody somewhere, Thanks for reading!